It is 2 :00 in the morning. I am at work right now in the emergency room of a hospital. This is the first time I’ve had to sit and put down some thoughts.
I have two kids, ages six and nine, two dogs, three cats, a husband, and I work part time nights and go to school.
People sometimes ask me how do you do it? I don’t know how I do it, I just do. It’s exhausting, but it’s something I have to do, because my dream is to be a registered nurse, and I won’t quit until I’ve achieved my dream.
People ask me if I miss my kids. Are you kidding? No! I like to spend as much time away from those brats as possible!
I’m joking. Of course I love my kids more than anything. It’s a bit easier now because they’re both in school, so when I’m in school, so are they, and I work nights when they’re sleeping.
It has been stressful, of course. Our latest stress is looking for a new daycare for the fourth time in as many years.
There are times I think it would be easier to just quit school and work full time, but I tell myself to just keep going. It will be worth it in the end. I will be able to work less, and make more, and I will be happier doing what I’ve always wanted to do. I think that’s the recipe for happy kids: a happy mom.
My work has been fabulous at encouraging me to keep up with my schooling. They arrange my work schedule around my school schedule, even though they have to make changes to the schedule at the last minute. They always say school is first priority.
Having a supportive family really helps too. I don’t know how I would have gotten as far as I have without my mom. She drives an hour each way to babysit my kids whenever I need her. And if she isn’t available, I have a fantastic sister-in-law who helps out, too.
None of us knows what the future holds. Being able to support yourself is so important. When you find yourself facing the most stressful time in your life, if you know that at least you won’t have to worry about money, it will make the stressful moments much easier to get through.
So when I get home at 8:00, go to sleep for a few hours, then wake up and go to school, all the while stressing about what we’re going to do about our daycare situation…AGAIN…I just tell myself to just keep swimming, just keep swimming…